Distance only distills our filtered emotions
You are my core
The order to my corruption
And the focus upon my disruptions
Finish my thoughts like you usually do
Symphonize my soul like you musically do
I refuse to be without my muse
I cannot accept that we aren't worth accepting
It's just so hard to love while forgetting
My past has crippled me enough to wheel my self to your doorstep
I want to rush the first step but my feet haven't hit the floor yet
But in my mind where walking into a jazz club
A fur scarf rests across your shoulders
Where're in the 70's where love and music have taken over
A time before rap existed
Where I could wrap you around my arm
And not be embarrassed by male critics
But that was a dream
Now I only hope to be a man by any means
But your love necessary
What we are is legendary
This is life on a ledge served with dairy
Cause you are the best thing I've ever had
Yet the only thing I've never known
We find each other alone
Afraid that someone like you even exists
Too many times I've searched for soil and found bricks
And I survived by building up a wall
That you've somehow
Climbed over
I find cover
Cause to be honest I'm afraid that we found each other
I'm scared of not being the being that you need to be with
Afraid that these bricks can't be your defense
And I'm afraid that the man I've been isn't the man that you should sleep with
So opposed to letting you share yourself
Ill tell you take care of yourself
Ill help you to prepare yourself
For the idea
That even thought we're perfect it isnt worth it
You deserve so much but I can afford so little
And a woman of your grace should never meet in the middle
My Dilemma
I want you
But don't know what to tell you
Cause I'm afraid to tell you
That our heads have tailed you
And until I can flip it back
I've failed you
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